Hey y'all. It has been awhile. If you are wondering. Bruce is doing well. He hasn't had many accidents and seems pretty chill so far. He also likes to give Paula Deen rides, so he is alright by me.
Recently Brittany of Brittany Herself asked to feature me on her site: CurvyGirl Guide. She messaged me on Facebook, let me know she was a fan of mine. That she felt like I was a great subject to feature for her site. WHAT! ME?
I spent a good three weeks freaking the hell out because:
2. OMG why would ANYONE want to look at me or ask me about fashion.
But I did it, and received tremendous support. The thing about having a body that society doesn't always embrace can sometimes mean that I internalize the message that my body isn't good, beautiful, and valuable. We put a high price on being attractive. Sadly, the number on the scale that connected with me (270 lbs) gets told "you are obese, you are MORBIDLY obese, you need to change the way you eat, you are going to die."
We aren't told that we can be healthy and beautiful at size 20 (my pants size).
We aren't told that the rolls and curves on our bodies are just as desirable as their counterparts.
Brittany's message is one that I deeply align with. YOUR body is beautiful. Regardless of if you can or can't shop at Forever 21 ... that fact doesn't hold weight (pun intended) on how sexy or valuable you are. So I had Victor take amazing photos of me and I went for it. I was uncomfortable during the photo shoot. It can be hard knowing thousands and thousands of people are going to see your body and potentially judge you. I tried to relax and remember the the voice that matter most was MINE.
What resulted were amazing images that reflected who I am. I completed the interview and sent them to Brittany.
Brittany is doing important work in the world. She has impacted my life, and by proxy the life of my daughter. CurvyGirl Guide and fashion might seem, on its face, vapid... but the reality is that it is revolutionary. Which is sad and awesome.